): i really regret not having good time management. lack of sleep=lack of focus and calmness=doomed for lit. sigh. i really screwed up. my essay didnt make sense. and i didnt do the one i'm better at (passage based) cause i didnt know how to tackle the back part. ): lack of examples. unclear argument=fail. ARGH! shit. i feel so disappointed and i feel like a disappointment. to mr sas. lingxin and myself. gosh...

 

I WANT TO DIE. all that effort put in for lit. down the drain. phuck. seriously.

is it just me? or is this crucial period really helping me see through the facade of most of my friendships?

yes i cant believe im blogging now. but yeah. i'm blogging after reading something. probably something i shouldnt have read. but heck. im just so sick of chem. sigh.

anyway. yeah. well. let's just see. when a's are over i'll see who are the ones who really bother to talk to me. and even now.. i see how some just dont care. some just dont understand.

really beginning to see that. these friendships were never meant to last. cause i've been trying so hard all along. and i'm the sole giver. now that i'm so caught up with A's. those who care. just leave the flame to die out.

 

ohwells.

thanks ense for your goodluck wish :) hope your papers went perfectly well. <3

thanks courtney kheng! i know you would definitely do well. remember our meeting to be confirmed after A's yeah! <3

thanks fen for asking me to bowl with you. LOL. i totally forgot about it. gosh i havent bowled in so long. thanks for understanding i have this stupid exam. nvm soon soon. hangout right? :D <3

thanks anthea for your sms :D and for entertaining me for full 2 hours that day. <3

thanks cali and mich for bothering to keep in touch with me. though i dont reply cali sometimes cause i totally forget or smth... <3

THANK YOU STEFFI THAM! for offering me help. i think i'll just see how paper 3 goes la. just gotta sleep early and really USE MY BRAIN tmr. sigh. hahaha. thanks babe. meet up when you're back! :D <3

to the people i've been studying with... jephtath... tk... chris... leonard... thanks for putting up with my stupidity.

and special thanks.

KWOKYOU JING. HAHAHA. kwok you and your school ahhh. bellcurve shifters. ahhaha. it's really awesome studying with you. honestly. omg we have like one list of things to do after A's right? :D we'll get through this tgt. :D thanks so much for lit notes etc! see you onn..... friday! yeah. <3

conversing with you is like......

having a monologue.. i see you, you see me, i hear you, but you don't hear me. or rather... you don't listen.

talking to the great wall of china. except that... the great wall of china is somewhat (as mentioned) Great..
in other words. i'm better off talking to that world wonder.

a potential post in FML. "today i attempted to talk to a friend... about general issues to settle and for some help. historical background.. i got dissed for about the 121418525th time today.. FML."

traffic around an area of disaster. earthquake happens in area A. everyone leaves A and heads to B. only a minority amount will be going over to B. i'm the area of disaster in a disaster. and yet the traffic of help is going from me (A) to you (B). and there is a traffic barrier from you to me... your lack of concern and lack of desire to help. and just maybe.. your strong-headedness.

talking to a "magic 8-ball". all words no action. all advice no logic. all advice all random.


zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. i wasted 3 minutes of my time. back to doing AQ. sheesh.

p.s. people. i screwed prelims. hmm.
chem- U (24% phucking phail)
maths- E (p1-46 p2-47. overall 46.5%.. and i thought i'd do better for p1)
econs- E (pro-rated. passed essay and macro case. would have done better if they included that micro i took. boooo. ): since they ermmm. temporarily MISPLACED my micro case)
lit- E (othello-6 poetry-12 p&p 16. EXPECTED < 5m for othello cause it was COMPLETELY phucking out of point. but i got 6 marks for intro plus 1 para of rubbish. cooooooool. overall 45.3%)
gp- D (p1-28, p2-25.5. overall 53.5%)

YES YES SUPER FAIL. if i count rank points i think i only have.... 47.5/100. including chinese phucking D and pw A. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

time to have no life...